My mom and I went to meet with my counselor to fix up my schedule and I asked to be put into eighth period honors US II with my favorite teacher and a girl I’m pretty friendly with and there’s a 99% chance it will come to fruition! :D
its so sadd its almost funny how even on tumblr very few people gave a shit that you were gonna kill yourself
Go read my recent post where I explained how I wasn’t trying to kill myself.
And some people care from a distance and don’t know how to help or show someone they care. And even if they don’t/didn’t, why does it matter? They’re here to follow my blog, not to be my psychiatrists.
Don’t worry, the power just came on and the lights woke me up.
I wasn’t intentionally trying to kill myself.
I started having panic attacks when the power went out and they were worse than usual. Since there were no electronics to distract me, all I could do was think about how school starts in less than a week. So I was trying to calm myself down so I could sleep. In addition to the medication I take every night (anti-depressants, mood stabilizers, sleeping aids), I took four pills that are used to calm panic attacks. I’m only ever supposed to take one, two at the max if it’s an emergency. In addition to that, I took a tranquilizer even though I’d already taken the one I was supposed to in the morning.
Basically, I started feeling really weird. It felt like I was breathing through a straw, I was extremely nauseous, and my head started killing me. It may have been the psychological effect of me being paranoid about it, I don’t know. But I thought I’d OD’d and I’d die in my sleep. To be honest, I should have told my parents and gone to the hospital or something, but I was totally fine, even happy, with the possibility of death.
Sorry if this whole ordeal either worried or annoyed you. I still feel pretty funky but it should be fine now.